The Sunday Currently | 02

I made a The Sunday Currently entry last week but we didn’t have an internet connection so finally!! I can make todayyy

CURRENTLY

Reading

The comment section in youtube hahahah

Writing

This post but I want to start writing our assignment in Filipio but I don’t know how to do it and my classmates are probably still sleeping so I’ll wait (anad naman ko aw char hahhaha)

Listening

Silent Sanctuary playlist in Youtube and Hiling is currently playing. So muuuchhhh feellsss to their songs.

Thinking

Why I didn’t get a good night sleep. I slept 12 in the morning and woke up 5 and that is nooooottttt how I sleep during weekends huhu

Smelling

I can’t smell anything for my nose is being naughty agaaaaiinnn. Oh how I HATE allergies 😦

Wishing

For a good sleep today. I feel like floating, really.

Hoping

To get a clarification about something. Hay. I don’t want this thing to continue because I know it would be so hard to stop.

Wearing

Shorts and t-shirt. Just those comfy clothes.

Loving

The background music hahahah I’m not heartbroken or what but their songs would always make me feel like I’m experiencing something haha hayy Silent Sanctuary ❤

Wanting

Fooooooooooooooooood

Needing

A vacation. I badly need to see my relatives. I miss them 😦

Feeling

Confused. I don’t know this feeling and whatever this is, I don’t like it.

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Almost-Midnight Thoughts

It’s 11:25 pm and I’m still awake. I just finished sending movie posters to my groupmates and I hope they could find a good one. I’m still trying to be productive at this hour because tomorrow (I’m very sure) I’m just gonna sleep maybe all day.

This daaayyyyy is so tiring but fun. We shooted for our Noli Me Tangere and we encountered hardships like the sea was vey aggressive! We couldn’t control the boat that much so we needed to be quick! Our groupmates’ boat sunk and we were just laughing haha! We even recorded that hahahah lol. And after that, we enjoyed the salt water  yeyeyeyeyeyeyeyeyey.

I really don’t like getting the main protagonist role in a Filipino subject for the girl always has a partner and its so awkward doing romantic scenes to someoneeeeeeee.

I got home with the skies getting dark. It was nearly 6 pm and my feet were aching I couldn’t barely walk huhu. The remaining hours passed by so fast I didn’t realised it was already 9 pm and I sill didn’t eat my dinner. I lost my appetite and I thought maybe there’s something wrong with meee?!! hhahahaha but I know it’s just because I drank water immediately once I got home so maybe that’s the reason why.

It’s already 11:33 pm and I couldn’t stop thinking about someone. It shouldn’t be like this. I thought everything would just go back to normal but now, I think it wouldn’t be. This should be stopped. And if he can’t do it, then I will.

No

Please stop asking if I’m okay. Stop what you’re doing. Please.

Unan

Saksi ang aking unan

Sa sakit na napagdaanan

Ito ang aking karamay

Sa panahong gusto ko ng mamatay

Ngunit heto na naman ako

Umiiyak at nabibiyak ang puso

Nabasa na naman ang unan ko

Na pinilit kong matuyo

Sa loob ng maraming taon

Iiyak nalang ba ako palagi

Kasama ang unan sa aking tabi?

Kailan ba ako sasaya

Upang madama naman ang tunay na ligaya?

Ayoko ng masaktan

Kaya itatapon ko na itong unan

Na saksi sa lahat ng kasakitan

Itatapon ko na

Ang masakit na karanasan

Itatapon ko na

Ang masalimuot na nakaraan

Gusto ko ng mabuhay ng payapa

Walang sakit na nadarama

At sana sa aking bagong kabanata

May bagong kinabukasan namang makita

Martyr

Sa isip kong napapagod

Di matanggal ang saki kahit hinahagod

Bakit ba ganito nalang palagi

Lagi nalang sumusunod sa sabi

Gusto kong lumayo

Isipin muna ang sarili ko

Ayoko ko ng magmukhang aso

Na palaging nakabuntot sa iyo

Gusto ko din naman maging tao

Na kayang gawin kahit ano

Gusto kong maging normal

Na hindi mo pinaramdam sa akin , mahal

Gusto kong kalimutan ka

Katulad ng paglimot ko sa mali at tama

Huwag mo na akong lapitan, maawa ka

Hayaan mo naman akong lumigaya, sinta

Ngunit bakit mahal parin kita

Sa kabila ng sakit na nadarama

Ganito ba ka manhid ang puso

Kapag palaging bugbog sarado?

Kawalan Ng Gana

Ang pag-aaral ay isang oportunidad na hindi dapat balewalain ng isang tao. Ako ay isa sa mga matatawag na “swerte” – ng mga bata sa Pilipinas dahil nakakakain pa ako ng tatlong beses sa isang araw, nakakapaglaro, at nakakapag-aral. Ngunit bakit tila nawawalan na ako ng gana?

Lubha kong inaasam na makapagtapos sa pag-aaral upang mapasaya man lang ang aking pamilya. Simple lang naman ang gusto ko, gusto kong makita man lang ng aking mga guro ang mga paghihirap ko. Hindi ko inaasam ang mataas na posisyon sa klase, ang gusto ko lang ay makita nila ako.

Ngunit bakit hindi naibigay sa akin ang sapat na pagtingin? Ito na ba ang sinasabi nila na pinipili lang nila ang bibigyan ng magandang marka?

Nasaktan ako. Kinalimutan ko na ang nangyari noong sa ika-6 na baitang ko ngunit dahil sa nangyari ngayon ay tila bumabalik lahat. Madalas lang mangyari sa akin na ibigay lahat ng makakaya ko kaya parang may bato sa dibdib ko sa panahon iyon dahil para akong nadaya, na para bang ipinagkait sa akin ang pagkaing binili ko.

Dahil ba isang normal lang ako na estudyante ay ganoon na lang ang gagawin? Ang ginawa sa akin noon ay karapat-dapat na ireklamo ngunit hindi ko ginawa dahil binalewala ko nalang na gumradweyt akong hindi “honor” kahit na inanunsiyo nila ang marka ko na karapat-dapat na mapabilang sa kanila. Hindi ko na inisip iyon. Tinanggal sa aking isip dahil aanhin ko naman ang mataas na posisyon kung wala akong natutunan.

Iyon ang pinanghahawakan ko ng lakas sa tatlong taon ko sa hayskul. Naisip ko na bakit ko pa sasarilihin ang aking mga sagot kung pwede ko namang itulong sa may gusto? Iyon ang mga pangyayari bago dumating ang unang markahan sa ika-9 na baitang ko, ngayon.

Nag-iba ang first honor namin na minsan lang mangyari sa loob ng maraming taon. Nagreklamo ang ina ng dati naming first honor dahil hindi niya matanggap na nausungan ang anak niya. Oh kay bilis gumawa ng aksiyon ng mga guro namin! Para silang nawindang, nataranta at tulad ng inaasahan namin, kami ang napagbuntungan.

Tila ba hindi sila naniwala na ganoon ang ranking namin. Sa buong araw noong Lunes ay naranasan namin ang akusa sa kanilang mga mata. Parang pinaparating nila na nagkokopyahan kami kaya nalamangan ang first at nakuha namin ng mga barkada ko ang posisyon na iyon.

Ngayon pinaghihigpitan na nila kami, no erasures policy, palagi kaming pinagsasabihan bago mag-quiz atbp. Imbes na maging masaya ako sa naabot ko ay parang gusto ko nalang na sabihin sa kanila na bawiin ang ikatatlong posisyon na naibigay sa akin. Naisip ko na ano pa ang halaga na makamit ito kung puro pagdududa lang naman ang laman sa isip nila.

Nasaan na ba ang mga katangian na nakasulat sa dingding ng aming silid-aralan? Bakit hindi namin naramdaman ang pantay-pantay na pinagsasabi nila? Pantay-pantay ba ang pagngiwi sa kamalian namin at pagngiti o paghalakhak lang sa kamalian ng anak ng aming prinsipal? Matapat ba na mas malaki ang grado niya dahil siya ang first honor kahit na may iba pa na mas magaling sa kanya sa panahon na iyon?

Wala ba kaming karapatan na marating ito? Dapat ba ay siya nalang palagi ang nasa itaas? Minsan sa buhay ay kailangan din naman natin makaranas ng pagka baba upang mas maging masarap ang tagumpay kapag makukuha natin. Ngunit sa iba ay parang mamamatay na sila kung makakaranas ng pagkabagsak. Parang nalimutan na nila ang bumangon at tumayo mag-isa dahil kinailangan pa nila na humawak sa kamay ng iba upang maiangat sila.

Ang laki nga talaga ng epekto ng guro sa isang estudyante. Maaring maging insperasyon ito o maging isang diskriminasyon. Sana ay matigil na ang ganitong pag-uugali ng iba sa aming paaralan na pinipili lang nila ang binibigyan nila ng importansiya. Sana ay hindi maging basehan kung malaki na ang donasyon niya sa paaralan o sikat ba ang pamilya nila upang rumespeto dahil kaming lahat ay nagbibigay kontribusyon din sa paaralan, hindi lamang sa pagbibigay ng pera kundi sa pagpili na diyan kami mag-aaral.

Nagmamakaawa ako, sana ay mawala na ang kawalan ko ng gana sa pag-aaral. Sana ay bumalik ang kagalakan ko sa pag-aaral dahil hindi na tama ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Dapat ay masaya kang nag-aaral ngunit baligtad ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Ano ba ang kailangan kong gawin upang bumalik na ito sa dati?

Sadlyp

So I finished writing my The Sunday Currently entry and I couldn’t publish it due to internet issues uggghhhh. Masakit sa heart bes huhu 

I’m currently using someone’s phone. I thought my entry would immediately go to drafts section but no!! Nothing’s thereeee :((

So no entry for today ugh hoping you guys to have a nice week ahead. Byeee

Feels

So I just finished watching Train To Busan and goodness it’s a fantastic movie! Korean movies always, alwayyyyyssss amazeeee me.

What I love the most about the movie is that no one overpowered the other. The casts performed well and their characters fit to the movie which made it more realistic. In times like what happened in the movie, some would only think about their lives but some also think about the others. The versatility of each of them made it astonishing!

So yun nga! I didn’t cry though hahha but my sister did. I don’t know what happened to me lol I wanted to cry ,no, I’m crying inside but I couldn’t put it into action like my heart was really aching but no tears came out haha.

I appreciate the daughter’s acting though and that pregnant woman! she was just so bravee despite losing her husbanddd 😦

And who would forget the scene where the two friends got infected 😦 they would have made it but yeah, this man just came in and ruineeeddd everything!!

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Shame on youuuuuuuuuuu!!!

Sometimes, a sacrifice has to be made. 

While watching the father teaching the pregnant woman how to stop the train and saying his last words to his daughter, I realised how underrated a father’s love is.

Almost all the tweets I saw online only said “Retweet if your mom is your hero” bla bla and it’s very rare to saw someone tweet that for their fathers.

There’s a scene where the husband of the pregnant woman told the father about how all the sacrifices would be worth it and many more. I hope the people would look deeper about the essence of the movie. It’s not just about surviving a zombie outbreak and killing people, its more than that. It’s about sacrifices, friendship ,and bravery. We never know what’s to come. The movie might become a reminder to everyone to never lose hope and to love the people while they’re still with us.

Thank you Koreans for making such wonderful movie. You guys never failed to amaze me and everyone. Keep it up!

Here are some of the photos in the movie

P.S I do not own any of these. Credits to the owners.

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They’re the two friends I’m talking about
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The pregnant woman and her husband
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The father. I think this is the part where the people wanted them to go out. agghhh
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Anddddd here’s his daughter!

The Best Way To Live

“The best way to live is to live.”

My classmate reacted when he heard that. He said he couldn’t understand and we, my other classmate, explained it to him.

Why is it the best way to live?

Because some people just exist and that’s not living.

I read the book The Beginning of Everything and until now it’s my favourite. It’s about a man who got into an accident and how he completed his self again. On the last part book of the book, it said; Continue reading “The Best Way To Live”

The Sunday Currently | 01

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I’ve been wanting to make a Sunday Currently entry but I was busy these past Sundays annndddd now’s the time since it’s holiday tomorrow! yaayy!

CURRENTLY

Reading

People’s entries for The Sunday Currently haha I don’t know what to do first so I need some guide lol

Writing

This post haha but I just finished writing my reaction paper for Noli Me Tangere. I’m so productive, yes, tularan niyo ko! haahah

Listening

Del Monte Kitchenomics but when i finished typing that, the show ended so I’m currently listening to Sunday Pinasaya (I love AlDub that’s why)

Thinking

About our research paper. We were supposed to interview cosmetologists yesterday but our leader didn’t show up 😦 Talk about group meetings hays

Smelling

The oil on my nose hahaha I don’t know what to call it but that’s what I’m smelling now lol!

Wishing

To buy the cap I saw online huhu but it would cost me much since I have to pay for shipping fee and the cap is already expensive (so luoy is me)

Hoping

For the UT Bundle I ordered to arrive already (I love Jonaxx huhu Queen J notice me senpai). The admin said she will start sending books to Vis-Min maybe next week. I’ll wait, sanay na akong maghintay haha! Charlang

Wearing

The shirt I wore last night and shorts. Someone used the glass-effect on me or what you call that basta when you use a glass to make you feel better. Basta ganoin. That’s why I didn’t take a bath today llooooll

Loving

The clothes I’m wearing. It’s too comfy. lovelots

Wanting

Mango Float huhu I want desserttssss

Needing

A port for my MacBook Air (uggghhh) I couldn’t use this for reporting in school. 😦

Feeling

A little not good. My right eye is hurting and I don’t know why. I hateeeeeeeeee this

So this is me on Sunday. How about you?

P.S Here’s Jason Mraz on top to remind us that we are all beautiful.

Oh wait! I suddenly remember Grace VanderWaal singing her original song with a beautiful thing on its title lol

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